The Lord spoke to me on my way home from church today and said the word FREEDOM. I knew what it meant…it was the answer to why I have been feeling such complete peace and joy since moving down to Arizona. Why freedom? Since putting my trust in Christ three years ago, I have been changed. I’m not the same person I once used to be, I truly am a new creation. I don’t act the way I used to act, I don’t think the way I used to think, and I don’t talk the way I used to talk. There are a few close friends that I was able to discuss the changes going on within me but to everyone else, they just saw the change of my outward appearance as I lost weight. They were completely oblivious to the changes going on inside…the changes that were transforming me as a result of following Christ. We lived in a small town back in North Dakota, the kind where everyone knows everyone. Although I was slowly coming out of my shell and getting to the point to where I was confident in my new identity that I was being able to let it shine through in some respects, there was still a lot of me that felt I needed to hold back from showing the real “new” me. I didn’t feel comfortable to completely reveal what I had become. I felt like I was somehow trapped within two different dimensions, and wanted badly to be able to break through and just fully live out the new me.

Since moving to Arizona, I have been able to just be me…the new me! No one here knows the old me or has any pre-conceived notions about my past. I get a completely fresh start. When I meet someone here, I don’t worry about offending someone by talking about my faith or saying something that might sound strange. I can raise my hands during worship in church and I don’t care who looks at me strange. I don’t feel like I’m being judged and quite frankly don’t care if I am. I have a confidence now that I’ve never had before and it’s growing stronger every day. I am finding who I am in Christ, and letting my true light shine.

2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

Praise God!!! He is so amazing, words just can’t describe…

Count it all joy…

My husband has been struggling with what he is supposed to do for a living since we moved to Arizona. We’ve had some “interesting” times and tough discussions about this since our move here and although I have been able to trust the Lord to provide work for him when the time is right, my husband does not have the same level of trust. He has been dealing with depression over his lack of direction in his life right now. We were talking about things again last night and the Holy Spirit reminded me of one important thing: count it ALL joy! This too has a purpose and is part of His plan!! How quickly thoughts can turn from “when are things ever going to fall into place” to “thank you Father, I’ll just be patient and continue to trust You because I know this is necessary and someday I’ll know why”. I know from past experiences that trials we face in life are never easy but they always have a purpose and if you are leaning on and trusting God through them that they always bring you into a deeper relationship with Him…so, count it all joy!! I keep telling my husband that someday these struggles are going to be part of his testimony of how the Lord worked in his life…I have faith in that because I have faith in Him!

James 1:2-4 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.


Every day I am more and more amazed. The Lord is teaching me so many things right now, I could write for hours and hours about it! 

The point I want to pass on right now is about His will and the peace that comes when you walk in His will for your life. He is showing me the full depth of the peace that walking in His will brings. When you walk in His will and move in the direction that He wants you to go in, He pours out unbelievable blessings and provides a supernatural peace that truly passes  understanding. 

I’m living that at this very moment. I’ve had some difficult things to deal with in the past few weeks and yet I told my mom just this week that I’ve never been happier and more at peace than I am right now and have been since we moved to Arizona. Just a few short months ago my husband and I were giving notice to our employers and lining up a moving company to move across the country from North Dakota to Arizona without any jobs lined up and without an address to give the movers. We walked in what we believed was His will for us, followed the peace and laid our whole lives down at His feet. He gave me complete peace at a time I couldn’t have possibly had peace. At the “last minute” or EXACTLY when we actually needed it (His perfect timing), He provided me with a transfer with my current employer and a beautiful house to call home. God is so great!! God is so faithful!! God is so trustworthy!! I am now finding myself in another situation where I need to just trust Him and I have once again laid mine and my family’s life down at His feet. Despite the recent situation, I have a crazy peace that I can’t understand and joy that I never knew was possible. What’s different now than the rest of my life when I didn’t have peace and joy? I’m actually walking in His will now; things are starting to come into alignment the way He planned. 

Walk with Him. Let Him walk with you. Let Him set the stride. There are countless blessings when you make Jesus the focus of your life!! My life is absolute proof. 

Psalm 16:11 – You will make known to me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; in Your right hand there are pleasures forever. 

Good enough is just not good enough…

So I finished up my last post and headed out the door for a walk. Not more than a few minutes into my walk all these thoughts started flooding in and I knew they were for another post. Forty minutes into my walk, I just can’t stand it… I’ve got to stop and start writing! Ok Lord, another post it is…

Good enough is just not good enough.

What am I talking about? Glad you asked! We were not meant to just go through the motions of this thing called life. For each of us that call ourselves believers, we have been called by God. We have accepted Jesus as our Lord and Savior and have decided to follow His lead and put our trust in Him…right? So are we following Him? Are we trusting Him? Do you lay down your life and truly trust that He’ll pick it up? We CANNOT just go through the motions of life, we were made for so much more!! If you don’t have joy in your life, if you don’t have peace in your life – you are going through the motions! I can say that because I’ve been on the other side of that coin, I didn’t always have joy and peace…but I do now!! If you are merely going through the motions of life, stop accepting that – that’s not what God wants for you. He wants each of us to be filled with His Holy Spirit and His power, His Joy, His Peace, His Patience, His love. How do you do more than just go through the motions? SEEK HIM! Get into His Word! Pray, pray, pray!! Make a decision that you are going to follow Him and let Him lead you and then ask for His help to help you do it!

Good enough is not good enough. You can be free from stress, free from worry, and instead be filled with hope and peace and comfort…that’s His plan for us if we’ll humble ourselves to ask for His help and make our relationship with Him a priority.

 Good enough is just not good enough anymore…get fired up…stop going through the motions…stop accepting less than His best for you…invite Him on your daily walk through life…seek Him…trust Him! Let Him illuminate YOUR path as He has mine! 

Thank you Heavenly Father for calling me to life. Thank you for your son Jesus that saved me and walks with me every day and because of Him, I can have a relationship with You. Thank you for the light You shine on me and through me. Thank you for the thoughts and the words that You give me, all the glory to You Father.