Leaving Him some room to work…

Our great God is absolutely amazing! I am so overcome with a feeling of peace right now that I just had to share it with you. So for those of you that have not been following my blog – me and my family are planning a move to Arizona. I’ve been applying for jobs in Phoenix since this past June and have not yet found “the one”. I had recently applied for one that I thought (okay, I hoped) was the one. I found out last week that I did not get that job. I wasn’t upset about it because I know that the Lord has the right one in mind for me and that obviously wasn’t it. The Sunday before I found out about not getting this job, the sermon at church was about how you have to give God some room to work in your life – if you try to have full control of everything, you’re not leaving Him any room. I felt like that sermon had my name written all over it; it sure hit home. I realized that this is exactly what I had been doing the past few weeks – trying to stay in control. I wasn’t consistently leaving Him room to work in my life because I was trying to go about things in my own ways. I have the proactive, planning, take control kind of personality and my human nature gets in the way sometimes. I guess you could say I’ve been gently reminded that I am NOT the one in control and everything WILL turn out the way it’s supposed to if I let go of the control freak nature and give Him some room to work. So I took a step back (again!), I lifted up all my doubts and worries to Him and re-confirmed my trust in Him. I’m still unsure of when all the pieces are going to come together but I have hope that they will. I have been filled with such an overwhelming peace, a peace that could only come from Him. My Lord has a perfect plan for me – I need only be patient and wait for it to be revealed.

Romans 15:13 “May God, the source of hope, fill you with joy and peace through your faith in Him. Then you will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

John 14:27 “I’m leaving you peace. I’m giving you my peace. I don’t give you the kind of peace that the world gives. So don’t be troubled or cowardly.”

Thank you Jesus for always leading me back to the path when I start to wander. You are faithful God, forever.

He is worthy of our trust!

I just can’t imagine (knowing what I know now) walking through life without the Lord by my side. I can walk in a complete stride of trust. I used to be a worrier – a big time worrier! Now, I’m the one with a sense of peace and others are worrying around me. My personal relationship with Him has grown so much and He has show me that He CAN be trusted. Right now He is faithfully working out all the details for everything in my life. Even with something as big as an upcoming move across the country, finding jobs, finding a good neighborhood and good schools for our girls, I am completely at peace and am able to put trust in Him and He is blessing me for that in return. Every situation that I put my trust in Him and give up control of, He confirms that He is with me and is trustworthy. He never lets me down.

So here’s my latest example: When we had decided to move to Arizona, one of the things that I started looking into was some of the after-school child care programs available knowing that if I (and probably my husband too) was going to commute to Phoenix each day, that the girls would need some kind of after-school program. Not to mention something for the morning as well. After seeing the costs for it and the fact that the hours still probably wouldn’t fully accommodate a full work day plus commute time, I knew that I just couldn’t worry about it and handed it over to the Lord knowing that when the time comes, he would provide for that too. So I was visiting with my mom this past weekend and she (without me having shared my concerns on this topic) says that the Lord gave her the word nanny after she had been praying about what she is supposed to do in Arizona (she’s been planning on retiring and moving back down there with us). She said that the only thing that keeps coming to mind when she thinks about what she is supposed to be doing down there after retiring is to help out with the kids. At this point, I share the fact that I had previously had concerns about what to do with the kids with being gone extended hours but had just trusted that the Lord would take care of it at the time. Wow, what a great moment as we realize that He has just answered prayers for both of us!!

Our God is so great and wants to help us in every way possible – we need only to let Him. Tell Him your problems, your worries, your fears and ask for His help. Nothing is too big for the Creator of all to handle. Invite Him along on your daily walk in life – you will be amazed how He shows up!

Psalms 9:10 “And they that know your name will put their trust in you; for you, Lord, have not forsaken them that seek you.”

Thank you Lord Jesus for being the foundation that I can build my life upon. You are the everlasting light for my path.

I am redeemed!

Redeem: to gain or regain possession of (something) in exchange for payment.

I have been physically and spiritually transformed; I am no longer the person I used to be. What did I gain possession of? Freedom! Freedom from the physical weight. Freedom from the sins I had committed. Freedom from the negative thoughts I had about myself. Freedom from the guilt I carried around. Freedom from the shame I felt. So what was the payment that I had to pay for this freedom? That’s the really awesome part –the only thing God asks us to do is to bring it to the cross. We have freedom because of His son Jesus Christ. We have freedom because of His death on that cross. I gained complete freedom the very moment that I brought it all to Him; brought it all to the cross.

The enemy never gives up though; he is always trying to tempt me back to sin. I have found that he tries to use those same things that used to be “hooks” to hook me back into sinful behavior. I found myself starting to allow my old hook (food) to take up residence in my life again. It wasn’t that I was overeating again but I was allowing cravings to take up thoughts that no longer belonged.

Last Sunday at church the sermon was on “What The Bible says about footholds and strongholds.” Our pastor talked about how sin can take a foothold in our lives and if it is not stopped, it can become a stronghold that gets harder and harder to break away from. There was a cross down in the front and at the end of the sermon, he invited anyone that had something in their life that had either a foothold or a stronghold over them to write it down on a piece of paper and come down and literally nail it to the cross. I had to admit to myself that I had allowed a foothold back in my life. After I went down and symbolically nailed my foothold to the cross, I literally brought it to the cross and asked the Lord to remove those cravings. Later that day, The Lord blessed me and reminded me that I AM free. The chains HAVE been broken. I AM NO LONGER THE PERSON I USED TO BE! The enemy no longer has control over me or my thoughts. He HAS BEEN defeated! When the enemy tries to remind me of my prior faults and accuse me of the things I was once guilty for, I need only to think of nailing it to the cross because I am redeemed.

I AM redeemed! (And the cravings are gone again – yay!!)

Think about this for a second – do you have something that is out of control in your life? Is there something that controls you more than you control it? Thoughts, negative emotions, substances? If something just came to mind, you have something that has a foothold or stronghold over you! Ask for freedom from the only one that is able to grant it to you – bring it to the cross of Jesus Christ!

I know there are some out there that do not believe all of it – God, Jesus…the whole thing. Let me leave you with something. Here are before and after pictures of me. These are not before and after weight loss pictures – these are before and after REDEMPTION pictures! The physical transformation is merely an external indicator of the spiritual transformation that has changed my life. God has changed MY life! His son Jesus has changed MY life! What will you let Him do for you?

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Thank you Jesus for the redeeming power of the cross! Thank you!!

Give it all away…

They say it’s all about who you know in life…EXACTLY!!!

There is seriously nothing better than having a real relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!! I never had any concept of what I was missing before and how much darkness I was in until He shined His light on me. It’s truly amazing what happens when you change your focus to Him!! Put all your fears on Him, hand Him all your worries and hardships – give it ALL away. He WILL change you – I am proof.

Psalm 18:28 “For it is you who light my lamp; The Lord my God lightens my darkness.”