I struggled with being overweight all my life. I was overweight as a child and it only got worse as an adult. Two years ago when I gave everything over to The Lord, my weight was causing me so much physical and emotional pain that I just couldn’t take it anymore. I was at my breaking point!
At church this week, something the pastor said really hit home. He was talking about Mark 14:36 and how God sometimes has to let us go through things instead of removing us from them so that we can learn and grow spiritually through the experience of what we’ve gone through. It totally reinforced my thinking of why I struggled with my weight all those years despite prayers for help. I had to go through all of that because that is what ended up bringing me to Him. I needed to get to the point where I could admit to myself and to Him that I couldn’t do it on my own, I needed His help. He needed me to come to Him and by an act of faith give it all over to Him. Now that’s a lesson learned the hard way!
He wants to help all of us this way – freeing us from the chains that sin wraps around each of us but He can’t step in and help until we are ready to receive it. It’s not easy getting to that breaking point or for others it may be giving up control but it is so worth it!! When I gave up and handed my life and weight loss struggle over to Him, He took over when I couldn’t. So yes I had to learn the lesson the hard way, but I wouldn’t change a thing even if I could. My struggle brought me to my Lord and Savior!! Thank you Jesus!!!
So I’ve been struggling lately in the sense that I feel like there is something that the Lord has planned for me, that He is going to use me in a particular way but I can’t quite put my finger on it. At times I feel like I am so close to putting the pieces together as to what it is, but I can never seem to grab onto it even though I sense it directly in front of me. I’ve been praying and praying that what the Lord has in store for me be revealed but it just seemed that I never got any closer to grabbing on to it. It’s like I had so many questions and none of them were getting answered and the more I searched, the more confused I became. It had been some time since I had done any reading in my Bible and it finally occurred to me (thank you Lord) that I needed to get back in The Word. I randomly chose to start reading in the book of John. All I can say is WOW! Even though I didn’t read anything that specifically pertained to the questions I’ve been struggling with, my eyes were completely opened up! John 1:1 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” Then I recalled Genesis 1:3 “And God said, “Let there be light”, and there was light.” So what did this show me? There is EXTREME power in the Word of God! His Word not only spoke all of creation into existence but “the Word was God”! No wonder I wasn’t getting my questions answered!! No wonder I’ve felt like everything was so unfocused!! It was all becoming absolutely crystal clear – when you are with His Word and in His Word, you are with Him.
So another lesson learned for Jenny – STAY IN THE WORD!!! There is power in The Word, there is clarity in The Word, God himself is IN THE WORD!!! As I get back to daily reading of the Bible, I have faith that my questions will now start to get answers. How exciting!! I’ll keep you posted…
Thank you Lord for always lighting up my next step on the path!
I don’t know how much you know about spiritual warfare or if you have ever had it affect you, but it is something I have been dealing with a lot lately. As my relationship with the Lord strengthens, the enemy tries to put up road blocks to get in my way. Recently, these road blocks have come in the form of headaches. I am not one that normally gets headaches, but I have had daily headaches for the past several weeks now. They were getting severe enough that I decided to go to the doctor last Friday. The CT scan did not reveal any abnormalities. So with the excellent news that everything looked clear on the scan, it was clear to me that these headaches were yet another attack from the enemy. Headaches – what a perfect way for the enemy to try to attack! It’s hard to think about reading in your Bible, doing your weekly Bible study, exercising, or anything for that matter when you are experiencing physical pain. These headaches are one of many physical attacks I have experienced. The enemy knows that I have a low pain tolerance and that I don’t deal with it well when I don’t feel good so he uses that against me.
You’re probably wondering why I’m so confident that these physical maladies are in fact attacks from the enemy. I’ll share something with you – some time ago I woke up in the middle of the night with a very odd pain in my throat. It was not like a sore throat or like anything I have ever felt before. It was so strange of a feeling that I knew right away that it was an attack from the enemy. I started praying – first with declaring that the enemy had no control over my body just as he has no control over my life, my spirit or my soul. I verbally spoke every word that came to my mind to not only refuse the enemy but to declare that Jesus was my Lord, my Savior, my shepherd and that I was covered in and by the blood of Jesus Christ who died for me. I fell back asleep that night while praying but woke up some time later, still in the night realizing that the pain was completely gone and I could go back to sleep for the night. What a night that was!! That was my first experience with realizing that the enemy was actually trying to physically attack me. Since then, my awareness has been raised and I know what to do when I sense another attack.
So with the absence of another headache, I was able to make it back to the gym today – another testimony to the power of prayer! Satan is no match against the power of the blood of Jesus Christ – Praise God for that!!!
There is healing in the Word of God!!!
Psalm 119:105 “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”
Welcome to my new blog “A Lighted Path.” I have explained the significance to me of the lighted path under the “About Me” section – I invite you to check out this page and learn a little bit about me and how my journey started. I look forward to learning about you too!
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